Am I Natural?

 I get scared of myself 
 Looking at how many different personalities breathe into my soul, 
 Which one is my true self? 
 Or do they all add up to make me whole? 

 Sometimes I'm a lioness inside 
 but can't express that, dunno why? 
 Maybe that's just my other side, 
 Am I natural? Atleast I try. 

 Sometimes I'm all happy and smiley 
 but the next moment I will cry, 
 I hate this thing about me highly, 
 Am I natural? Atleast I try 

 Sometimes I feel "I'm alone", 
 Conversations feel dry, 
 For that instant, I'm just a living stone, 
 Am I natural? Atleast I try. 

This is a poem that I wrote. Actually, it's just my 3rd poem. I'm just a beginner haha. I wrote it when I realizes that there isn't any specific personality of mine, I'm an extrovert sometimes; sometimes an intro. I'm fierce yet quiet. I'm childish yet mature enough. And I think it applies to all of us, we do have different personalities as our behaviour differs from situation to situation, person to person. but the question is: which one is my true self? or all of them? If I peel my personality layer by layer, which is the last remaining one? well, I think all of them. All those different natures of mine make me "ME" :)

Do let me know what you think about this by commenting.

Have a wonderful day <3

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