Entering 10th and Growing up (This sucks)

You just entered 10th, first-time boards, and boom! you realized that your life is not the same as before and now there's no going back, it's never gonna be the same. Your career choices are the hot talk of society. Every public meeting you attend has only one topic to start and that's "Aage ka kya plan hai?"(what are your future plans?) and ends on the conclusion "Abhi toh 10th per focus karo" (focus on 10th for now). This sucks man! I'm astonished by the fact that every relative or someone older has only one thing to ask and say. I don't want this kind of attention. This new annoying experience made me believe that the phrase: "mind your own business" is unknown or forgotten in our society. But that's also true that I too have the same question to ask my fellow tenthies. And I really like the fact that maximum are confused just as I am. That's mean, I know but it makes me feel relieved that I'm not the only one who is feeling this way, who doesn't have an answer to that annoying most asked question to me till now. As growing up, things are getting complicated; friendships are getting complicated and studies are getting way too complicated. How I wish that we could control our stupid hormones. I have seen friendships getting ruined coz of mere hormones. Damn. This sucks too!

As a child, I used to think that growing up would be fun. I wanted to grow up fast. But now the tables have turned. I wanna be a child again. I had a great childhood, wanna experience that again. Wanna be that carefree, outgoing little cutie again. This sucks! Do you know what sucks more? That this is just the start. I'm just 15. Have to experience it till my mid-twenties. Yeah, mid-twenties because I will start getting mature I guess and will stop or at least reduce complaining by then. Maybe this is new that's why it sucks. Maybe I will get used to it. I don't know. I'm not liking it, at least for now. It's hard sometimes. Sometimes tears are just waiting, at the corner of the eye, to fall off. And you can't even go to your parents. When this hesitation came between us? I only used to cry as a child to gain my mother's attention then why this hesitation now? I will tell you again, growing up sucks man. It just sucks. 

Maybe this is just the phase. What doesn't sucks is that I like the way I'm growing. I'm enjoying it despite all these new changes. I'm trying to get independent day by day, little by little. And lowkey I enjoy those hormonal changes too, just a little. A sense of responsibility to do something for my parents, focus on my studies; look after my siblings; manage life with studies, physical activities, social activities, personal growth, etc.; I'm enjoying it all. That little independence. That little freedom. I'm loving my life just the way it is. Imperfect. Challenging. Exasperating. All those moments when I feel low. All those moments when I am having my fullest. Growing up does sucks but it's endearing too. Just a little :) 

This has to be the longest blog I wrote till now and that too in just one go. Do share what you like or dislike about growing up.